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Nights like this

2011-06-21T17:43:00.005+08:00

God knows who's still reading this space. But anyway, hello everyone, decided to blog a short one while waiting for my boy to come back from work. Been spending our last few saturday nights at neverland again. It's not as if we don't get bored of that place, it's just that we always end up there eventually.

I love mom

2011-05-08T17:49:00.003+08:00

Happy Mothers' Day!

I bought cupcakes for my mom and wrote a small card to let her know that she's the greatest and the best. No amount of words can describe my love for my mom because she's the most supportive person in my life. It's only as we grow older we realised how much they've done for us and no matter how we hurt them in the past, we were forgiven. To all those people out there who thinks that your mom do not understand you because of generation gap or different opinions, just remember that your mom has her own way to love you and to protect you. You might not understand now but wait till you are a parent yourself and you will know. You have what some people do not have and that is a mother's love. Don't lose it.

Anyway, we headed to St James this weekend. It was a good night because most people who I haven't seen in a long time was able to join us. However it was ruined because of some juvenile delinquents who just do not have what it takes to be in a club. Oh well..

Pardon me for my lousy camera which produces such low quality photos :(

I really hate facing the camera because

(1) My face is too fat for the camera

(2) The flash

But more of the (1) actually.

Why do I have so much fats on my face :(

Was supposed to be home to recover from the hangover last night but it's janelle's birthday. Blast it off at neverland.

Ought to give my body a break from all the alcohol...

Shall plan some healthy activities for this coming weekend :)

Sunset Grill and Titanium

2011-05-06T18:00:00.007+08:00

It's our first time there and we were deciding on the levels to choose. So we tried 1, 3 and 10! Hahaha i know ordering 1 was pointless but i'm unlike the rest i didn't went there to challenge. However, i'm so proud of my boys! They finished level 10 and johnny wants to come back for level 20 the next time. Anyway, it was really worth the try and i had fun! :)

$3 per cup of milk

Halfway through level 10

Swollen lips

Sweating

Alvin cheated because for every bite he took, he drank the milk. He drank mine as well

Epic photo of joel because he only ate level 3

Spent our last weekend at Titanium. Waited for a damn cab for almost an hour to go home. Guess we'll never go back there anymore :(

Hello back to school.

2011-04-27T16:58:00.010+08:00

Hey everybody. After two long months of holiday, i'm finally back to school.
I went for my first car practical this morning and it's so fun to drive, can't wait for my next lesson on this friday.

There's this module i gotta take this semester which makes me pretty sad to part with my coloured hair and long nails. I don't have a very fair skin tone to start with that's why black hair will only make me look darker :(

Anyway, so it's me with my new look now.

Hmm where should i start...

SALLY'S 18th BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wenfen and I surprised the birthday girl at her workplace with a cake and a small diary with all our old photos together. We dug them out from FRIENDSTER. Do you all even remember friendster actually existed!? I was so fucking fat back then. Oh my god, was really reluctant to paste the photos in the diary but decided to let the birthday girl have a good laugh! Wonder what hao really saw in me back then. I was so ugly. So the diary is a secret gift only between the 3 of us.

Headed to " Xian De Lai " at bugis for steamboat and this ended the day because baby girl refused to go drink. She know she won't be able to walk out that place " alive ". Hahaha.

" I live for the nights I won't remember with the people I'll never forget "

Ohana = Family
So we spend time together as a family during the weekends.
Be it catching a movie, going out to drink or having dinner together, it's good to spend some quality time together since everyone's busy with their own stuffs during the weekdays. Sometimes, I get really upset when nobody takes the initiative to come up with a plan but there's still people who knew the importance of gathering and i'm thankful for that.

So we were at Neverland again.

And V4 for the first time last saturday.

" Wherever you are, it's the company that counts "
True or not you decide :)

That's all about it. Will be heading to Sunset Grill for some real hot and spicy buffalo wings this coming weekend. So excited!

titanium > nvl

2011-04-09T17:12:00.008+08:00

HAHAHA my camera really sucks :(
Look at all the bad quality photos :(
Anyway, spent both my friday and saturday nights with my babies at Titanium and Neverland.

Bkk trip

2011-04-08T18:48:00.005+08:00

Hello everyone, i'm back in sg which means no more waking up to shop :( Bangkok was so good because i'm always exhuasted from all the shopping which makes me so happy when i'm back in the hotel with all my new stuffs!! Awesome getaway if i'm having any r/s problems with my bf. Shopping will be a great remedy.

I always tell my bf " If you ever break my heart i'm gonna travel around alone, i won't mind. " My bf will always say the same thing " Why do you have to think this way instead of coming up with the different countries we will visit together every year "
Aaawww.

Anyway, i've finally been to Hollywood in bangkok!! So much bigger and very happening even on a normal weekday. Just that it will be even better if i'm going with my group of friends. It's weird to let loose infront of my parents right!! Oh my god!!

My mom is so cute. She said to me " Dear, why you sitting down? Stand up and dance la! " Hahahaha epic.

Anyway that's about it. It's shopping in the day and drinking in the night plus non-stop eating. Bf and I brought an extra empty big luggage there and we managed to fill it up. 2/3 of the luggage are my stuffs. Really can't wait to get back there at the end of this year!!

I'll get the photos up soon! Will be heading to Titanium tonight with my babies!! Missed them much. I feel kinda sad everytime i remember how we used to do everything as a group. Now it's just the few of us :(

School's starting in 2 weeks time. All good things have to come to an end eventually.

To lose weight

2011-03-23T02:29:00.003+08:00

Great night everyone! I just had my supper and i was so bored that i googled " how to lose weight overnight "

BUT...

Google says " Make sure you eat or drink nothing 3 hours before bed "

SINCE I ALREADY BROKE THE FIRST RULE...

Google then says " You can't lose weight overnight but you can lose it fast "

Google also says " Weight that are lost overnight are usually just water loss that will be gained back soon "

Aaaaaaaaawww that's pretty sad.........

Some fun facts to share after googling:

(1) One can lose 62 calories by drinking ice cold water best between meals or before meals

(2) Substitute big plates with small plates at home because when food starts to fall off, you'll know it's enough

(3) Excess fruits turn into fats in the body. Don't over eat fruits just because " an apple a day keeps the doctor away "

BY THE WAY, CATCH WORLD INVASION
IT'S SO GOOD
THE MARINES
YOU'RE THE REAL MEN
*BLOW KISS*

Mom's birthday, JB trip

2011-03-22T01:38:00.007+08:00

Aloha! Some long awaited pictures! It's my mom's birthday last week! Surprise was a success, the delivery man made it in time before my mom knocks off. Aaaawwww she loved the surprise so much, this made the money so worth it!!! Bet she was grinning all the way from her workplace to home.

So we went to check in at the MBS hotel and head right to the pool. OH MY it's so pretty!! I felt reluctant to leave the place :(

Anyway, after swimming we went to have an 80++ per pax buffet meal. OH MY the food there... *thumbs up* Er, that probably explains the price but also because it holds the hotel reputation too? Oh well, i wished i was SMART eater but i'm obviously not!!! I dont really know how to appreciate good stuffs like ribeye, oysters, sashimi and the list goes on... Guess the most expensive thing i ate was prawns?! So ashamed of myself for wasting money :(

Headed to Fuse after that for some drinking and chilling session. My mom didn't really like it there because the band only sings English songs. Should have brought her to neverland or something... Ha, joke

LOOK AT THE BATHROOM, SO ROYAL!!!

WAS KINDA FREAKED OUT INITIALLY BECAUSE I THOUGHT THERE WASN'T ANYTHING AT THE END OF THE POOL.

BUT LUCKILY...

There's something like a ledge beyond the pool.

Too bad i can't show it here. You people should go there!! It's a good experience!!

(Sorry the pictures are a bit blur because i was using my phone camera)

Below are the pictures while we were on the bus to JB and a restaurant we had our lunch at.

It's 2:30am, bf is already soundly asleep on the bed since 5 hours ago... He has to wake up for his forklift course tomorrow and i'll be all alone at home. Aaaawwwww but not to worry, loverboy has stocked up snacks like hello panda at home so that i won't starve to death when i wake up!!

Felt so good after facial mask, i'm all ready for bed now! Goodnight :)

2nd week of holidays

2011-03-12T18:49:00.010+08:00

I've figured out why i do not have photos for my blog. Reason being all the photos we took are in my bf's phone. So another post without photos, i'm sorry for boring you guys out. The recent disaster that hit Japan has flooded the whole twitter timeline. Really cannot stand stupid people who go on and comment without their brains and without their heart.

Things like:

" This is what Japan deserve for invading Singapore during the world war "

" I don't really care what happens in Japan, please protect Maria Ozawa "

WTF?!

Even if you're not in their shoes but at the very least have some integrity in your words heartless fellas.

ANYWAY,

I went to JB city square mall yesterday. The thing is with just 20 SGD you can have an awesome lunch for example mine was CHEESY PASTA WITH FISH FILLET, WEDGES & A MOCKTAIL at some Hong Kong restaurant. Watched a movie there and have dinner at Old Town White Coffee, NASI LEMAK & 2 TOAST. However it's a pity that there's nothing much you can do in that mall. A pretty boring mall because the clothes there are kind of lagging behind.

Oh well, the only thing that comes to my mind every day i wake up is how should i spend my day. Really hate having no plans plus i'm still unemployed now so technically i should be enjoying every night. However, even if there's somewhere to go, we need people. It's every day hao and i, me and hao, you don't expect the 2 of us to be heading to a club or something? Oh man, my party animals are all either in camp or busy with school/work. So once hao goes into the army, i'll be left alone to rot :(

But, to look on a brighter side, it is my mom's birthday tomorrow. We will be celebrating at MBS hotel. This afternoon i ordered a bouquet of roses to be delivered to my mom's workplace the next morning. Can't wait for tomorrow!!

Hmmmmmmmm, i'm home alone now waiting for my " night riders " to come over for dinner. We will be going around Singapore tonight to look for the best supper!! So i hope it doesn't rain tonight.

Seriously, they are so good!

Happy 18th

2011-03-02T18:10:00.012+08:00

Hello everyone, I'm finally legal! Just enrolled for my car yesterday and shit, i've got to wait 2 months for my btt! Oh my, that's long..

On my actual birthday, charmaine, her bf and zac gave me a treat at Seoul Garden with a surprise birthday cake. So sweet of them, really love it! Guess i've gained a few kilos on that day itself because dear brought me to swensens for ice-cream at night too. I'm a happy girl.

Celebrated my birthday in advance at Neverland last saturday with Sherri (birthday girl), ohana and my girls. Chin Yi (also the 1st March baby) wasn't there but next year we will definitely celebrate our birthday together. No doubt, my birthday was a great blast. Thanks to all of you for making this so memorable for me. Not forgetting all the birthday wishes! I really appreciate it.

I've been celebrating my birthday 3 years in a row with the same group of people. The only difference this year was i didn't " die " on my birthday and some people weren't here to celebrate with me. Last year on my birthday, i was brought back home dead drunk in a trolley, attracting a lot of attention with my facebook wall posts, photos and videos but this year i made it out of neverland alive!!

I always question myself, how can i ever live without such awesome people in my life?
Once again, thank you all so much :)

The only thing i wish for this year is for my life to be back in place and those people who are ought to be at my birthday celebration this year, please be there for my next birthday! I'll be waiting.

Forever and always.

2011-02-23T19:12:00.003+08:00

No not my dog. Went for my facial today after many months. Have to be the pretty for my upcoming birthday. Shit i really need to get a job, there are so many things i want to do. Really hate myself for being so fussy about the location of the job, what do i have to wear to the job and the pay especially! Still can't get over the fact that part of my pay has to go into CPF. At this rate i'm going i'll be jobless forever. Time for a change.

Stop stressing, start living.

2011-02-22T15:56:00.000+08:00

Damn, how could my exam falls on my birthday?

2011-02-18T17:51:00.006+08:00

Oh i just realised that you have to press the "download photo" at facebook! Hahaha laugh at me all you want because i'm not the only one, when i ask my bf he also say " Ya lor, cannot 'save pic as' because facebook change already " -.-

So the reason to blog a second time. Don't say i'm bias ah my dear ohana. Here's our picture! I love you all!

A photo of me and hao at korea, magnificent view after a great effort climbing to the peak of some i forgot what mountain.

End of year 1.

2011-02-18T17:00:00.004+08:00

Oh my god how i regret to rely so much on facebook and not save a copy of my photos!! Why can't i " save picture as " in facebook now?! :( If anybody knows how to do it, please tell me. I'll be very grateful.

I couldn't put any ohana group photos up here because they are all in facebook and are obviously not from my camera. Oh man... What a pity.

It's my study break now which is also equivalent to holidays because this semester i only have 2 exams to take which falls on 25th feb and 1st march my birthday!! Yup and so today marks the end of my year 1. Time flies. Gonna be in a whole new class next year and it's time again to make new friends. Gonna miss char & zac so much 'cos afterall we survived this whole semester without going to a single lec except the last revision. Hahaha will definitely miss those chatting sessions during long breaks and over lunch and 3 of us rushing last minute work.

Miss my saturday nights so much and of course also my girls' nights out. Wish my boyfriend gives me allowance everyday just to go out play muahahaha ~

Good old days

2011-02-17T20:05:00.003+08:00

I was on the phone with wenfen the whole afternoon for almost 4 hours. Hahaha after so long, some things just won't change. Can't believe we used to spend 7 days a week together. Not exaggerating but with school and all the sleepovers it's possible ok! Good old days really. My boy is enlisting soon, maybe i'll move in with aklly but i'll have to sleep on the "messier" side of the queen size bed where she throws all her *ahem* at :(

Anyway, i'm looking for a tempo job for prolly about 2 months? Need to earn some cash to party and of course save up for rainy days!!

Life isn't that bad afterall

2011-02-15T16:57:00.003+08:00

Take note: This is going to be a wordy post.

My oh my time flies, i'm going to be a year 2 student in tp in about 2 months time? I've always liked the beginning of the year because of cny, vday and my birthday!

Well the reason for blogging because i'm going through a rather rough patch of my life, not relationship wise but some family problems. My life is like a 360 degree change. I know it may not be a big deal for some of you guys but it was pretty bad for me. I didn't see that coming because i thought i had the perfect family but now i'm learning how to handle it. I understand that every family will have their own problems and i will not elaborate on mine. The only thing i'll emphasize is that you can only find who is true to you in your hardest time.

It wasn't too bad for me because i haven't lost my biggest pillar of support and that will be my bf. When i'm not thinking straight all the bad things flowed in smoothly, i pushed my bf away thinking that i'll do fine on my own. I started thinking that i'm gonna lose everything i have now, all the luxuries, my family,my friends and say goodbye to my no-worries life, i became very depressed.

Thankfully that was only in the beginning. Even if i've to learn to grow up in the hard way, i will.
So then again i realised, we can do without all the luxuries in life. If i want them, i earn them. I should stop being so dependent of my parents which i'm obviously guilty about it. Even if my life has to change, it shall change. I believe that life cannot always be cruel to you or always be nice to you, so i'll take what's happening as an obstacle that i'll have to cross.

So yes! I just spent my valentines' day with my loved ones, my fellow ohana. So touched when i heard about the birthday plan that they have came up for me. See? I'm actually not alone! I've beautiful friends. Even when a part of my life is going haywire but another part of my life is balancing it out. Life isn't that bad afterall.

Hmmmm... my boyfriend is a very unromantic person because he doesn't know how to surprise his girlfriend but this year he's such a sweetheart because he made my vday so simple yet heartwarming. Not just vday but my everyday! (I don't think there are any words to describe to anybody out there the kind of joy you feel when you're with the person you love) I love surprises but i don't know why i have a habit to spoil my own surprise. So he gave up keeping the surprise for me because i spoilt it.

I received a bouquet of ferrero rocher with a teddy bear and an ice-cream lollipop along the way, had a fabulous meal at swensens together with my dearest clique and followed by a tub of my favourite b&j ice-cream while watching the movie No Strings Attached. No doubt it was nothing special but being able to be so heart-to-heart connected with the people you love is what makes valentines' day special, isn't it? I hope all of you had a good time be it with your partner, friends or family because they all love you and it feels good being loved.

Did i mention that i'm so annoying because i whine a lot to my boyfriend but that's only when we're at home. Hahaha, i may look "cool" on the outside but i like being pampered like a princess when i'm with my boyfriend. Just admit it, which girl doesn't! The best thing is i have 90% chances of getting what i want. To people who don't know me, don't worry i'm not that kind of spoilt brat princess that you see or those disgustingly act cute not cute silly girls that you see on the streets. Even i couldn't stand them myself. (No offence) So this young girl is finally turning 18 in less than 2 weeks time. Since i'm the eldest in my family sometimes I cannot help but to wish for an elder bro or sis but now with my group of friends i already feel like a younger sis so i guess it doesn't matter if i'm the eldest. Bet all of them are feeling happy for me now because i'm no longer underage! How awesome is that.

Guess i'll be updating this site more often now but with pictures and less words :)

2010-09-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

god should seriously stop taking people who matters away
let all the heavy storms be over
return us peace
we promise to do good

we should all stop fighting at the end of the day we will never win
those who do good will proceed to heaven
and those who do bad, it's time to burn in hell

i miss us,
do you, ohana?

2010-09-29T15:19:00.006+08:00

we quarrel we fight but you never left

me and you know how much we want each other in our life

as and when i see people finding new love and falling out of love

the more i would like to hold on to you

and promise you that we're perfect for each other

all the good times i spent with you is enough to get me through all the bad moments we had

2010-09-03T17:13:00.002+08:00

You underestimated me so screw you :)

2010-09-03T17:03:00.000+08:00

I'm so pissed now i feel that im able to take ten strong shots at a go and if it still doesn't knock me out, you're in deep shit.

2010-08-23T18:23:00.000+08:00

what hurts the most was being so close

2010-08-22T18:07:00.004+08:00

perharps one day we should swap roles
then you would probably understand how it feels like to be me
and vice-versa

i'm really. really. really upset
because i know if i were you
i'll definitely do it better

):

2010-08-14T14:21:00.002+08:00

true blood season 1.

.

2010-08-10T13:36:00.006+08:00

somewhere inside, . know it will never be the same anymore
because . wasn't significant enough to hold you back
because . chose to go one step further and fucked all up
because . became someone else

and you stopped giving in to . nonsense

Keison

2010-07-15T17:06:00.002+08:00

♥

This is little keison.
He is a chinchilla.
He is not a hamster.
He is way bigger than a hamster.
He is very active.
He jumps really high.
He bites.
He love raisins.

His cage cost $800 but he loves getting out of the cage.

drained.

2010-07-09T17:03:00.003+08:00

i'm totally exhausted!
thanks to the amount of school work i have to complete.
9-6 everyday.

managed to scrape through the week.
awesome schoolmates.

next week won't be any better
but will still survive i guess

nevertheless, life's been good with hao.
happy pill after school and before bed.

i'm contented.
weekends! here i come!

ohana's chalet.

2010-06-28T22:24:00.002+08:00

Amanda Lily Ohana i'm back from chalet. love sleeping on my own bed, love walking on clean floors, love drinking boiled water, love sitting on clean toilet bowls, love love love being home!

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Jonathan Ohana Auditore and Joel Ohana Whatchasay like this.

Jonathan Ohana Auditore

but miss sleeping with 5 person on 2 beds,5 person on the floor all in 1 small rm,miss walking on dusty and ash covered floor,miss drinking alchohol and soft drinks and tap water,miss sitting toilet bowl that has been vomitted and peed on but cleaned,miss miss miss being in chalet,right?

Yesterday at 9:33pm · · 2 people ·

Joel Ohana Whatchasay

Super like ur comment jon (:

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Amanda Lily Ohana

all the cannot be blacker feet, the smoky living room, the freezing air con, the ferraris and lambos in the room. Can never be any better!

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Jonathan Ohana Auditore

the boring sit down and spam tibits,the concentration and 007,the quite pathetic bbq,the chalet without speaker.this is what i would call a chalet of the ohanas.

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Amanda Lily Ohana

last minute bbq food, last minute charcoal/fire starters from other chalet, last minute tibits as our lunch also from other chalet and last minute chivas, so many people but only four chairs. what a memorable 4 days 3 nights.

Yesterday at 11:00pm · · 3 people ·

what else could i say?
even the most pathetic chalet turns out amazingly well because of the most awesome people in the chalet.

Toy story 3 today.

2010-06-20T03:24:00.005+08:00

Two loners Two hours of karoke

Its almost the end of my two weeks holiday.
School's starting and im not looking forward to it at all.
Just the thought of all the projects and the long hours in school freaks me out.
Who says life in poly is way slacker in secondary school!?
Who says life in poly is way better than secondary school!?
Ha, yeah i fell for that.
But if you give me a choice to go back to secondary school, i'll still say no.
So maybe
the bottomline is
i just dont like school
I STRONGLY BELIEVE NO ONE DOES ANYWAY.
My best days in school were my kindergarden days i suppose

by the way, this two weeks had been tedious...
Karma
is
something
no
one
wants
to
believe
in

During this two weeks i've decided
I WANT to work in marina bay sands hotel..............

It's so pretty!
Oh my god especially the sky park!!!!! I'm totally in love with the entire building that everytime i see it i'll tell hao that its gonna be my future work place. Hahahaha
even on the sg flyer i pointed to hao and cheeboon telling them i'll be working there in the near future

i really really love it

I guess my life is rather planned, feels like it's fully planned
hmmmm just whether it's gonna go accordingly or not lol

i want to be married to hao with 2 happy kids(im rather ok with girls but hao want them to be boys?)
i want to work in marina bay sands hotel with 3k per month or MORE
i want to relax in a big house with a room with big tv screen and loud stereo set with carpets and huge cushions on the floor so that my fellow (ohana) can come lepak at my house anytime!!
best is to also have a bar at home also
a water bed at home with pink curtains surrounding the bed
i want a car with sky roof (me not being the driver) probably some audi cars out there!? (oh so pretty)
a cute little jap spitz?!
OH YES! THAT IS IT FOR NOW!
hmm is this gonna be possible if i dont attend school now??
yes definitely unless hao is a very rich guy to start with
or sudden fortune maybe?!
woohoo

Dont wake me up with reality now.

♥

2010-06-07T17:01:00.004+08:00

♥ happy second anniversary to me and fi ♥

it's been all tears and joy, ups and downs, just me and you.

so cheers to what we've been through and smile because we're still doing awesome.

let's get it started

2010-05-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

TO PARTY NEED MONEY
tonight's gonna be a great night, must be mentally ready to screw up all the mid sems next week.

haha great

i'm gonna live life like how it is suppose to be.

have you been across some people trying too hard for something
but end up with nothing?
how about those winning a battle without having to do anything?
you put a big (L) on your head
boohoo

2010-05-11T11:50:00.002+08:00

I need to sit for a test later at 4pm but it's so difficult to study infront of the computer. It's also difficult to get off the computer now.

ok i'm currently linked to a website from facebook and this website is a replica of the book Man are from mars, Women are from venus.

& i chanced upon this!
Women hate lying, they do it only out of necessity. Men love it; it gives them validation to their illusions of grandeur. Women do it like professionals; men do it with amateurish results.

it's true because what are the chances of a guy getting caught with his flings and a girl getting caught with her flings?

ok sidetracked a little

i'm here to update about MY life.
life's been good.

however i am beginning to dread school everyday not because i don't have friends but because of the amount of work i have to do. i can see my projects and assignments piling up like a mountain but motivation level still 0.

It will still take me sometime before i finally press the reset button in my life.

I think i have awesome classmates who understands that i actually have a life outside school. I can't stay in school with them for the entire day. my whole time before school and after school is dedicated to my boyfriend.

Time really tells everything.
It tells me that there's always a chance for your trusted friend to turn their back against you without a word.

It also tells me that i've found myself a great boyfriend.
I don't see what's so bad about sticking with somebody who will face all kinds of shit in life with me. i don't see the reason for me to give up somebody this important for people who enter and exit my life as and when they like, for people who thinks backstabbing isn't a big deal and for people who only live for their own benefits.

Why should i try so hard to fit into your circle? I have my own ohana.
This family of mine is way more dependable.

life is good

2010-04-22T11:50:00.002+08:00

ok seriously i really do not know if anyone is reading my blog.
but if you are,
i wanna tell you that im actually feeling good for this first week of school because i only have to turn up for lectures

actually i kind of like my classmates alot and im friends with almost the entire class ok!
my classmates are actually way way different from my ohana(family)
so therefore i gotta hold back a little when im in school hahaha
so overall, its a good start i guess

the first thing i picked up this week in school is that
timetable is rubbish
lectures always end an hour or 45 minutes earlier than what's stated.
unlike secondary, if the bell doesn't ring you can forget about leaving earlier.

the second thing is the number and duration of BREAKS.

so meanwhile i have five hour breaks before my next lesson starts and camp tonight and i am at my own house now! Just a 15 minute walk from school

fi is working till 8pm today and he asks me to turn up for camp and stay at home today. So today im all alone and i wont be seeing him till tomorrow 8pm when he ends work. this is so depressing. im becoming more and more dependent on fi because he has his bike now and amanda is a lucky girl because at certain times she do not have to squeeze with people at the bus stop trying so hard to get up a bus.

alvin will be serving the nation in a few days time
we will be holding a farewell party for him this saturday.
muahahahahahahaha
its going to be fun he's going to be drunk

2010-04-17T13:56:00.003+08:00

can you believe it my school ends at 6pm on tues and thurs.
this is so scary!
but in between there's like 3-4 hours break.
die.
im need to move out of my own comfort zone and start making new friends already.

all over again

2010-04-14T23:00:00.005+08:00

hello?!
i thought im supposed to be your pirority?!
lol
k fine no big deal

cheers honey
orientation is tomorrow
im so fucking scared i swear! i dont know why im feeling so out of place
i cant sleep now!!

i dread orientation
i dread school

amanda you gotta grow up
you cant expect your boyfriend to go to school with you?

oh my
gotta face this new level of education myself
this sucks

and you know what
i need to get out of singapore, its getting way too boring

2010-04-10T13:35:00.002+08:00

too much alcohol

The birthday boy got kisses from everyone. Too many to upload! Lucky him!

Ohana

Best i ever had

Good morning.

2010-04-10T11:28:00.003+08:00

Hi early birds!
It's a little too early to wake up at 10am on a saturday.
But who doesn't love waking up knowing that there's plans for today?

Fi is fetching his baby back now before we head to town for good food and movie!
I'm so happy while waiting

If you minus all the conflicts that will happen in a rl
who won't want to be in love?!
Even waiting seems so meaningful you know?! Hahaha

no wonder people say women in love are the prettiest because they are the happiest!

ok enough of my shit.
I just woke up feeling lucky for myself that's all.
I'm easily contented because fi gave me a morning hug and a morning kiss
but it isn't a bad thing because i appreciate small little things that somebody like fi will do for me :)

i guess you've heard many negative comments about long mundane rl, nothing new nothing interesting
but in actual fact everyday is something new
everyday you have something new to laugh about
everyday you have something new to remember
everyday you have something new to learn

You know what's the best part
Everything that has happened 2 years back feels like yesterday.

My back is itching badly now.
I went for my first tattoo session already at gimmelove by baldwin and there will be many more to go because i'm doing a full back.

I don't really bother what kind of impression i'm giving you guys when i say this.
But i can't wait to finish the whole piece because i swear it's so gonna kick your ass.
Don't talk about regrets with me.
This is definitely not something i did on impulse.
I'm confident that in the future i will not go out in shame but in awe

You know sometimes when you just turn your back away for a second, your closest friends could turn out to be your enemies?

Life is full of unexpected events
I just don't understand why some people can stand putting on a mask for so long
Isn't it easier to treat somebody truthfully/sincerely?
It's pointless to be angry.
I trust that you just have to experience it yourself then you'll understand.

That's why i always love my group of friends. Don't you agree that sometimes girls are way more bitchy than guys? Or is it because guys are simple minded creatures?

Whatever it is.

I only know humans are all the same.
Whatever you do to your own kind, you'll get the same treatment.

Fan's 18 already ):

2010-04-06T16:48:00.003+08:00

Hi.
It feels like everyone's 18 except for me.
We just celebrated Fan's 18th birthday last saturday.

Clash of the titans was really really good just like percy's.

You know what.
I just got my pay but i bet it can barely last me for a week ):
I'm going on a date with fi this saturday so prolly my pay will be gone on that day because of shopping.

and my little boy would like to TRY RIBEYE!! Hahahahaha.
Omg, i'll never forget the first time i tried ribeye.
I cannot stand anything with blood. (Even bbq chicken)
That steak i tried the last time was kinda bloody, gross
That was a bad start.

What seriously bothers me is that, school's starting... It's really starting...
Like in less than two weeks time?
I love my life now
I have all the time in the world to myself.
Don't have to dedicate it to studies at all.
Just have to work four hours a day.
Other than that, i've so much time.

I'll try to upload the photos soon 'cos currently there is some problem with blogger now.
But there's still facebook!
K, That's it.

p.s I'm so excited/nervous/scared for tomorrow's ......

Annoying post.

2010-03-29T20:25:00.004+08:00

ME wants to blog.
ME ended work at 3pm.
Reached home at 4pm.
Waiting for fi to end work at 8pm.
Waiting for fi to have prata together.

Which means, ME haven't had dinner yet.
ME stomach is very hungry.
ME feeling grumpy already.

Anyway, junhong called me with great news today.
ME found an artist already.
Swee.

To update you guys.
ME starting school already in like two weeks time.
ME is very depressed although ME should feel excited because this is the moment that ME has been waiting for. THE LIFE OF A YOUNG ADULT. To me, it's like a total change. From secondary to poly. In other words, i'll meet new people again. I'll need to make new friends again.

Another phase of life.
Oh wells

But ME'll have to juggle my time well so as not to drop out from poly! WAHAHAHA.
baby's tp is on the 8th april and once he passes his tp,
omg i'm so excited because ME'll be the first girl on his bike. AND THE ONLY GIRL OF COURSE. Exceptions? Me'll have to consider.

Yes readers, ME is so selfish.
I don't like their boobs leaning on my bf's back.
I don't like their legs to touch baby's buttocks!
So yep

To be continued.
I need to have my dinner now. Bye!

slow and steady wins the race

2010-03-25T18:00:00.003+08:00

hello
busy with work lately
end of the month = pay cut = must chiong
5th april, pay day!

i can't wait.

if there's anything interesting in my life then i'll update.
bye love.

gloomy.

2010-03-18T16:25:00.003+08:00

when you're down with flu cough and fever, you wish someone was here to take care of you so when you close your eyes and listen to the heavy rain outside, you know that you'll be safe and in good hands.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

2010-03-17T23:04:00.003+08:00

Still alive and kicking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok i tell you what, i want to give up so badly.
Just give up.

Give what up!!??!
Don't probe.
You'll never want to know

Guess what dudes.
i went for romp v last monday and i tell you what it's definitely of no match to last year's. Such a waste of time and money ):

Gotta turn in now, work tomorrow.
I really miss my old fi, do you? if you ever see him, ask him to come back soon.

insert hearts here.

2010-03-04T17:37:00.003+08:00

Process of making baby fifi..........

Taaadaaaaaaa!~!

Happy birthday honey and happy birthday to me.

All photos are up on fb already!

17th

2010-03-01T13:27:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to me, chinyi and sherri!
I'm so glad that we get to celebrate with each other this year again! Last year was a blast, this year too! Sad to say, i became the joke of the day. Two years back on fi's birthday i was dead drunk and i swore to myself that i'll never be drunk again! But last night, my god............

I was effing DRUNK again. Hahahaahahaha i swear i was laughing at myself when they told me what ive done!! I've no idea how crazy i went.

I was scolding everyone around me and laughing and crying like retard.
How embarrassing!

Obviously under these circumstances, you will expect people to take videos of you and sabo you on fb. Ok, i guess ill just have to be prepared for the worst because i have no idea what kind of stuns they came up with.

Today, fi will be bringing me out to celebrate my birthday! I cant waitttttttttttttttttttt.

keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love

2010-02-26T12:52:00.005+08:00

i gave work a miss today.

my birthday celebration is tomorrow.
i am feeling so sick now
to make it worst, my troublesome part of the month is here!! hate being a girl.

): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Valentines day celebration.

2010-02-18T01:11:00.006+08:00

I swear i was smiling to myself while preparing fi's gift
Couldn't wait to see his expression!

I even wrote short messages at the back of every photo! Hahahahaha.
Oh man, it must have melted his heart ♥

baby i hope god would love to see us together till the end of world :>

♥

2010-02-17T01:29:00.004+08:00

You know what.

i think i've vent enough anger on twitter and fb discriminating all the guys in the world. Rather offensive but who really bothers about their image if they are really boiling inside.

Today i took a bus home.
Because anonymous has someone to ride anonymous home on a bike.

By the way, these are photos taken by sherri on valentines day :>
Pictures in my camera will be uploaded a lil' later.

Ok. I need to do some typing or i'll really be brooding over that previous matter and piss myself off.

First.
It's essential for a guy to know that all girls love surprises be it big or small surprise.

So if you're a guy who didn't even prepare anything for your girlfriend on a day like VALENTINES DAY then you should know how much you've failed being a boyfriend :>

Yes, some of you may argue that " vday is just a normal day what so long as i dote on my girlfriend everyday, she knows i love her alot bla bla bla "
Excuses 101.

So back to you.
If you really love her that much,
Whats making you hesitate to surprise her! What's stopping you?! By putting in a little effort to see the genuine smile on your girlfriend's face, why not man?

Instead of the fake smile your girlfriend gives telling you " it's ok dear/honey/baby "

Plus, girls are jealous creatures.
Don't tell me you have the cheek to take them out on streets and let them see the whole world holding flowers and gifts?! I don't think so.

Maybe you say.
"It's a waste of money getting gifts, you may be sincere on the outside but an asshole inside"
But the thing is.
You can make your own gift.
You don't have to spend hundreds.

I've always believe in making your own gift because it shows your girl that you made an effort :>
Who's with me?

♥

2010-02-14T02:53:00.004+08:00

Last week's.

Happy 20th monthsary, i ♥ you.

.
Today.

Happy valentines day i ♥ you.

cny eve.

2010-02-13T13:41:00.003+08:00

Hi
I havent switch to cny mood yet

As for vday........ ):
I don't dare to have high hopes about anything like surprises or whatsoever but even if it really turns out bad i just have to console myself that atleast i'm celebrating it with fi and friends.

Another thing, I should stop buying the same kind of dress but different design.

I've never really tried shopping alone until yesterday. Surprisingly time passes so quickly that it's time to meet hao after his work. Trust me, it's way more productive if you shop alone. I've got myself 6 items and...

My 400 dollars pay is gone in less than a week :'<

To look on the bright side of life. The money from angbaos is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-02-11T14:45:00.002+08:00

2010-02-10T16:29:00.002+08:00

This weather makes me feel like staying at home with the air-con on and a tub of b&j ice-cream infront of me and many many cups of ice water

2010-02-08T14:03:00.003+08:00

hello
you know what makes the best breakfast
1) A cup of ice milo
2) A slice of bread spread with warm nutella and another slice with melted cheese

shopping later
best

halfway through momo love...........................

good old times

2010-02-05T18:46:00.004+08:00

it's time to bathe and meet sherri to get my pay later and wenfen for dinner later
spent some quality time with sherri last night over at macdonals
we talked about our good old times

i really miss alot of people
i saw how people changed be it for the better or for the worse
i saw how people left and came back
i saw how people left and never came back

i don't ask for the time to reverse
i only ask for one day maybe on my birthday we can all hang out together putting work aside putting everything aside just that very day before johnny and alvin enter ns, we can have fun together the whole big wonderful bunch

i love you all

Hehe, no work :)

2010-02-01T13:23:00.006+08:00

I want to catch hachiko, anyone? fi doesn't want to watch it with me. he slept throughout (marley and me) the other time. fi has always love dogs like me but oh man, it's just a pity that we both don't have the means to feed it. But he promise that we'll get it when we're married with 2 happy kids!

So after one whole week of work, i'm finally off on sunday. I'm already starting to love my work and all the people there already but this job makes fi jealous because the timing sucks plus i can't accompany fi like how i do every single day already so he asked me to quit. Oh well...

So on my off day i went on a sweet loving date with fi, hahahaha i used to complain that we always go out in a group no chance for romantic dates but now i wished everyone was free ): i miss our good old times.

Yes, vday's coming!
Can't wait! Hopefully it'll turn out so much better than i expected! Chinese new year too.......steamboat and angbaos excitedddddddddddddddddddddddd. After cny will be my birthday! How happening! Can't wait!

2010-01-24T14:52:00.003+08:00

hello
i'm glad i'm still alive. my goodness, i've never expected summerbreeze to be so packed during weekends especially saturday. the crowd just kept coming and coming but i've made wonderful friends there. hahahaaah. well, i'm likeable i suppose.

It's almost a week without fi ):
i can lie to the world that i dont need him anymore but deep down inside i know how much i miss his presence. haha i wished i knew what to do.

Moving on.

2010-01-21T12:08:00.004+08:00

I'm starting work on friday at summerbreeze. Less time to think of fi now because i'll be working from 6pm - 3am. By the time i reach home, i'll be flat dead on bed. Dining by the sea. An ideal place for a date. Luckily i haven't been there with fi. If not i'm going to start working and start thinking of him again. Very bad.

Fi is someone i'll do everything with in my everyday life. Everytime he goes to school in the morning, i'll sleep till he gets back and lie on top of me thinking that he's very light. I'll watch dramas at his house waiting for him to come back from his cdc either with good news or bad news. If he fails his practical, atleast he has me by his side. Fi loves hugging me alot because he says that i'm his teddy bear (refering that i'm fat!) Then we'll make our brunch together at home and we'll have dinner outside together. At night when i'm doing my facial, he'll sit beside me reading his newspaper or the secret book by adam khoo, he'll hug me when we sleep and i can always hear him talking in his dreams. Whenever we had no plans for the day it wasn't that bad because we had the company of each other. But now, i'm alone at my house and he's alone at his house. We are living under the same sky but no longer the same roof anymore.

I went to drink by the sea with andrew yesterday at pondstar (pasir ris townpark) They sell shots/food/beer/cocktails/mocktails. It's a very good place to chill. I sat there for 4 hours without realising until when my kick sets in. Last night was an ASAHI night! It's our first time trying it and we had cans and cans of it. I drink not because i want to get myself drunk over fi. That would be the silliest thing to do because making yourself drunk and puke all over doesn't mean that your guy/girl will come back to you, your problem is still left unsolved the next day when you're sober. I drink for the kick. There's a fine line between kick and getting drunk.

I'm so glad that i'll be seeing eefan later on! 19 months isn't very long. But for the past 19 months, more than half of my friends are fi's friends and i love them alot too. I hope the steamboat plan tonight won't be cancelled. Recently my aklly has been stressing over some stuffs. Idk what happened to her friend or her workplace but i wish that everything will be alright soon so that she can go to work happily everyday. Though she has less time for me now. But it's ok! I have a very good listening ear like andrew now :)

2010-01-19T15:39:00.006+08:00

My eyes are swollen and my heart is empty. But i'm conscious, so much conscious than before. And now without love, my vision became clearer than ever. I've never seen things so clearly before for the past a year and seven months. I was too deep into love that i thought i could leave everything behind just for you, forgive everything you've done to me in the name of love. But I was wrong.

I'm no longer with fi because we have chosen something that's best for the both of us. None of us wanted this breakup, none of us expected this to happen, none of us was at fault. Before this, i thought love was powerful, i thought love could conquer everything but i was so wrong. I thought i've put everything behind me and moved on spending every single day happily because i couldn't help being with you but sadly after so long, so hard that i tried, we're back to square one. It feels as if falling when you try to fly, i've never thought falling would hurt so much.

Your past was a disaster. It's something that haunts me time and time i'm with you. What i could see now wasn't our future but all your past, no longer me and you. It's so difficult to see myself without you. But this is a choice that we both got to make eventually.

Yes, it's going to hurt. Experiencing this myself was way worse off. It's so difficult to cope with my own feelings. The world seems crashing down on me at this moment when i reminisce about the memories you and me created.

I'm sorry that i chose to walk away. I've not only lost a boyfriend but also my pillar of support all these while. Now that you're gone, i have to learn how to be independent. I no longer have someone by my side all the time to shower me with love, to hold me and kiss me, to lie beside me every night.

That familiar shoulders that i always rested on. The familiar hand that holds me everywhere. The familiar voice that whispers " i love you dear " The familiar face. So last night in your arms, i finally tried to fight back all my tears and do this. I said the magic word that shouldn't be said in a relationship like ours. I cried so badly last night because you meant the world to me. You've always been the stronger party, you hugged me tightly telling me that i'll find someone so much better that deserves my love. You told me strongly that you'll try to avoid me and drift away slowly from me so that i don't miss you so much. For my benefit, you encouraged me to go out often and get used to the loneliness without you. You said confidently that you'll wait for me so that if one day i can forgive your past, i can always come back to you and that will be a new beginning for us. Last night was so painful that every time you kissed my tears away from my face, my heart was screaming for you.

So today i hardened my heart, packed my stuffs and left. I believe that i'll always love you. I just need time to overcome the one inside me and i hope it isn't too late.

Life's a bitch.

2010-01-18T13:28:00.006+08:00

The person who loves you the most, hurts you the most.

Mom's considering to get me a pomeranian now now now and i'm so excited! I've always wanted a dog but i'm afraid that i don't have the means to give it a good life. But now that my mum can financially support me to get a dog, i'll have no problem! Hahahahaha.

Life's a bitch.

Because when i don't wanna work, so many job lobangs.

When i wanna work, nobody wants to hire me.

And now that everyone's got a job except for me,

i'm going to be alone.

Oh man.

Life's a bitch.

Because for the past one year seven months, i've been together with a sucker.

Life's a bitch.

Because all good things have to come to an end eventually.

Life's a bitch.

Because you gave someone your everything that you end up with nothing now.

Yesssssxzs tp :)

2010-01-12T11:18:00.003+08:00

It's so nice having a computer in your room! Hahahaha i haven't brush my teeth yet. I'm going to bishan later hopefully i'll get a job either this or next week. I'm very sick of lazing around. Especially when my boyfriend is so sick of me now. I've already come to terms with it. Why make life so difficult for myself. He loves ogling at other girls' **** then so be it. He thinks i'm not good enough for him, then so be it. He thinks that i ain't hot enough for him, then so be it. He wants to go act like he's single, then so be it. He wants to play a part in all the activities together with all the single and available guys around him, then so be it. He wants to go clubbing or any dirty pubs, so be it.

I should have expected this to come. Never try tying someone down. The harder you try, the more disappointed you'll be. He'll come back after having enough fun outside.

So maybe i should give myself some allowance to hang out with better guys too? :)

I went to take my results yesterday and i'm very very happy with it. L1r4 = 13. This was far from what i expected for myself. Anyway what's most important is that i can get into Tp! For the 4 years i've wasted in school, í still made it eventually. So relieved!

2010-01-05T17:04:00.003+08:00

so nice to have you !

2010.

2010-01-03T12:58:00.005+08:00

A year, 365 days. With 24 hours each day.
Can you see for yourself how much you have changed? How much you have been through?

you will never believe it, my 2010 celebration was crap. LOL
Aston for dinner.
Waited for fireworks at marina.
Got JAMMED in the queue while walking back to mrt station.
And lastly, instead of drinking at bq or something, we went back kampong to drink and chill.

HAHHHHA joke.

ok nevertheless i'm not gonna let this affect the start of a new year! :)

First.
I'm going to get myself a job with overtime.
OT= extra pay.

i'm gonna use all the money i'll earn this month to be inked at the back.
i believe that something beautiful is worth paying for and waiting for.

Or maybe if i have some money left, i can go shopping @ somerset 313 forever 21. i still haven't got a chance to shop there ): very sad very sad. girls will never have enough clothes.

Next.
I'm getting my o level result very soon and this is very crucial for me. Because if my results can't get me into a poly, i'll have to find another alternative. I guess i'll start working towards my dream. My dream is to have my own beauty palour.

Third.
I'm looking forward to my 17th birthday because it's a step closer to being 18. It's a pity that i'm not 18 yet. When you are not yet 16, you can't wait to be 16. When you're 16, you can't wait to be 18 and when you're 18, you wished you were 21. After 21, you wish you won't grow any older. I'm like this.

Eefan's gonna turn 18 in a few months time. I'll miss him being underage with me ):

Fourth.
I'm very thankful that after so long. I'm still very close with my aklly. You guys must be thinking that why her name haven't been appearing in my blog for so long. You don't see her photo appearing in my blog now. I have people coming to me asking if i'm still on good terms with wenfen.

The fact is, yes i am and i believe i'll always be. She's the best person i've found in my whole fucking life. I don't see her everyday now. Sometimes i don't even see her for more than a week. I haven't been spending quality time with her. But i tell you what, there's something between me and her that even if i meet her the least number of times, she will never be replaced.

I'm sorry for neglecting you again and again.
what i want you to know is, if one day i ever lose you. i'll never be complete again even if i have everything else in the world.

we had a treaty.
the world in my heart, half is yours and half is hao's. so don't ever think that i don't love you k.

Fifth.
I look forward to spending quality time with my dad again. I have the best mum and dad. I love my family a lot. Don't ever doubt their love for you and never ever compare them to other parents.

Last but not least.
I hope hao will love me forever like how i'll love him :)

Genting 2009; Christmas countdown.

2009-12-31T01:40:00.011+08:00

I just came back from genting today. I'm going to miss the weather there, ironically, because i'm always complaining that it's cold. I'm going to miss watching cheap movies. I'm going to miss eating real kfc chickens. Singapore kfc serves us chicks and not chickens. Compare the size of their chickens and you'll understand. Back to singapore. In other words, back to being poor. I don't feel rich anymore, so different from the 5days in malaysia ): We eat as much as we want, we play as much as we want. Every meal was so filling and because the weather is cold there, we get hungry 2-3 hours later. So can you imagine how much weight i've gained back?! Oh man.

For the last 2 nights, we've been going to their kbox to drink. A bottle of vodka, 3 hours of free singing session and 6 jugs of free mixers. Each of us is only required to pay around 20++ SGD?! You don't find such good deals in sg.

I was so afraid to fall sick during the 5 days so every morning i drank redoxen, vitamin C. So everyday after breakfast WITHOUT FAIL, i need to shit everything out. It feels so good! Hahahahaa.

It's nice being overseas. You don't have to rack your brains everyday finding a place to go in sg cos there's nothing new, nothing fresh.

Before we leave for our genting trip,

Christmas countdown.

Town to spray.

Bq to drink.

Honey is taking his prac 5 now. Hope to hear his good news later!
For more pictures, my fb okay! :)

Í'm going out to celebrate the arrival of a new year 2010 later on! Enjoy yourselves darlings!

xmas eve.

2009-12-24T13:57:00.004+08:00

Hello dear readers.
its xmas eve today and i woke up at 7am with a very very sore throat.
i was supposed to feel better after eating some disgusting luo han guo syrup but apparently this chinese medicine doesn't work for me. this is so so so so going to affect my mood and screw all my plans for today ): ): ): ): ): ):

I wish to have a nice dinner with a huge turkey on the table but i think that's so not going to happen. Wenfen's heading down to work so no steamboat no turkey @ her house like last year. I'm going to cook some spaghetti for my little honey who is still sleeping soundly now after coming back from his circuit revision.

I went cycling at pulau ubin a few days back. Correction. I went there to offer my blood to those sickening blood suckers. bad weather. Muddy roads and everything, yucks. Gave class chalet a miss. My deepest apology to pauline. I didn't mean it. I was so fucking sticky/sweaty/smelly and everything bad.

I'm leaving for genting on the 26th! I guess i've played my best during the holidays and maybe wasted my holidays enough. It's time to earn some cash after i come back from malaysia :)

merry christmas to all of you in advance and of course be excited for 2010! it's a brand new year again.

vivo

2009-12-07T01:45:00.004+08:00

hahahahaaha im so happy for myself. i've finally watched new moon! it's true that girls love fantasy alot compared to guys. guys are more realistic. therefore, new moon is a no-no for them. i swear i'm smiling to myself throughout the movie. ok stop stop stop. be realistic. to double up the happiness, i didn't have to fork out a single cent on that day!

does anyone has a two week job to introduce?!!?!

Alvin/Kelvin/Hao 18th birthday :)

2009-12-03T17:50:00.006+08:00

24/11/09.

02.12.09

2009-12-01T04:42:00.002+08:00

i tell you what.
this is what happens when you're stuck with someone for too long.
you quarrel over the same issues over and over again and come to no conclusion.
reason being you love him and you know he still loves you it's a waste to let a r/s go like this.
so you guys make up eventually after the fight hoping things will get better.
even people around you are aware of that.
people are sick of looking at the both of you quarrel, they know you guys will be back together again.
let me tell you again, you both can love each other alot.
but there's something that stops you both from being together.
different commitments.
when your honeymoon period is over, you'll start looking at things from a bigger point of view, you'll start thinking long-term.

he may just be another phase of your life.

I feel good.

2009-11-22T23:38:00.002+08:00

I'm finally home!~! I love being at home. The computer at fi's house is dead dead dead and i'm no different from a zombie when he's in school. After today, i'll be out again till god knows when. At the very least, i know my next week will be packed with chalets. I don't have to rot at kampong :) I have to make extra effort keeping my rebonded hair soft and keeping my face moist. Staying up late almost every night is very bad. It's really difficult to maintain a good complexion. After next week, it's time to earn back the money i've spent lately.

Freed.

2009-11-10T21:41:00.003+08:00

Hello world, i'm back to update!

My last paper is tomorrow but i have been enjoying myself since friday.
I went shopping yesterday and i'm really very broke now ):
I spent like $200 in less than 3 hours?!!
Girls can be kinda scary when it comes to shopping.
I went all the way to simpang after that just to fetch fi from work last night and he got me out of bed at like 11am to town again.
(Me)(Without any cash) walked aimlessly at town today. Making myself so tired.

so when he head for work in the evening,
i went for a proper facial i feel so good now!

I'm gonna get my hair done on friday! Though i'm not going for prom ):

ZIRCA ON MONDAY I CANT WAIT.

TWO UPCOMING CHALET (23,24,25) (29,30,1st dec)

I doubt i can even work this month. Die. No cash.

Hiatus.

2009-10-12T02:25:00.001+08:00

I'll be back after my O's.

All bark no bite.

2009-10-12T01:59:00.003+08:00

Stanley's birthday celebration at pasir ris park.

Did you see the fire burning on the table?

I guess i was just being hopeful to expect some changes in you.
I hope you'll someday realise that towards you i'd given my best.

2009-10-07T19:06:00.003+08:00

i'm happy because today is the last day of school!
i'm sad because someone very important is being very insensitive towards my feelings.
i'm screwed because i'm not staying at home today to study i'm going to meet my aklly.

2009-09-29T23:23:00.005+08:00

oh baby, this shouldn't be the way. i'm supposed to be putting aside all distractions and focus on my subjects ): where's the zest to study?

i'm very depressed.
if only time moves at my pace.

i'm so lost ços there's too much to do.

Lippppyyytatt.

2009-09-29T17:51:00.003+08:00

2009-09-23T23:49:00.003+08:00

A few days back. fi and i tied a note to a balloon and release it into the air.
Hoping that the universe will receive our note and respond to our wishes.

hey i'm amanda.

2009-09-23T21:56:00.002+08:00

I have no idea what to blog.
I think my life is gonna bore me to death.

It's two weeks back since i had fun and it was during johnny and cheeboon's 18th birthday chalet. Oh man, the people around me are all turning 18. I'll miss those days that we have to queue so long for underage parties. I'll miss those days when you guys have to "smuggle" me,sherri and ivy into NC16 movies. The day at suntec when we had to switch to another cartoon movie wall-e instead of 4bia. Now that i'm already 16. You guys are moving on to the next level. It's been a year and the half together with you guys. From young punks, we became the way we are now. sometimes we look at people with a different point of view not realising that they were shadows of us. The earth is revolving, humans are changing.

There are always times that i really hate it when you people hide things behind my back. I hate being cheated on. But despite everything, i knew that it's still for the sake of the relationship between me and hao.

The days when we sat at some places talking about everything under the sun. Talking about our past. Talking about aliens. Talking about blackhole. Talking about Davinci. Talking about 2012. Getting mr ong cheeboon to open his golden mouth. Alvin gave himself a nickname woshixiaohu. Johnny called himself woshixiaoxiong. To think that they can come up with such names for themselves back then. The stars frenzy> our starboy mr smelly alex. The dogs frenzy> mr alvin who walks with his head slanted to the side and now the sausage frenzy> woshiahchris. The ultimate bad guy> mr big bird. There's even the burning yourself with cigarrete butts frenzy. Too much to recall.

I'm getting a little bit off-track.

Alright, now i have to put more focus on this upcoming exam.
This is really draining me out.

This week- complete all physics TYS.
2nd week- complete all chem TYS
3rd week- SS
4th week- geog.
Remaining- Literature.

So much to do but it's gonna be over soooonnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!!!!!!
It's a pity that i do not have a boyfriend who sits next to me revising our work together.
But i have a boyfriend who plays with me the moment i end school late feeling very moodless, a boyfriend who talks nonsense with me, a boyfriend who force me to make lunch (spaghetti + soup of the day) with him, a boyfriend who bugs me to go ntuc with him to get all kinds of snack.
Someone who bears all the biting from me.

TO BED NOW! g'night.

2009-09-22T23:34:00.003+08:00

i am currently finding something to distract myself from the fact that i'm being shoved aside again to a blind spot in your heart.

Fi got me roses last month accompanied by a card.
"yi ye my love. firstly happy monthsary, secondly i'm sorry for being such a lousy boyfriend. lots of love, ***jason, your lovely husband-to-be."
I swear i can even smile in my dreams back then.

I'm so proud of myself today.
I actually finished almost 3 physics paper from TYS. This is so satisfying. I was spending half of the day with keefe STUDYING>EATING>DOTA and we got pawned in all the games like some chiwawas. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2009-09-21T23:45:00.001+08:00

i've no backup plans if i fail my o level.
this is so sad!

2009-09-21T23:36:00.000+08:00

i'll come back with a proper post i promise :)

2009-09-09T23:54:00.000+08:00

Hard as I try I know I can't quit
Something about you is so addictive

2009-09-05T14:35:00.003+08:00

Amanda Ong & Jason Serizawa like this *thumbs up* :)

Kaven's

2009-09-05T13:55:00.008+08:00

HAHAHAHAHHA KAVEN'S 18th BIRTHDAY.

this sucks.

2009-09-03T19:43:00.004+08:00

I'm having maths tuition in another 1/2 hour.

I just came home from afternoon chem/physics study session.

Study session was screwed because eefan, wenfen and i sat together. We had so much fun that we forgot all about studying.

I postponed 2 weeks of tuition due to my desire of meeting fifi after school lessons which end at 5 or 6pm everyday.

I didn't like the idea of not seeing fifi a day, i'll feel sad.

Before i sleep, we used to plan how we're going to meet tomorrow.

Hence, i woke up the next morning with something worth looking forward to.

I waited eagerly for 5pm each day ços i know fi'll be waiting for me at the bus-stop behind.

Yet now, i gotta wake up everyday bearing it in mind that my plans for the day doesn't include fi.

):

2009-09-02T22:58:00.000+08:00

Tell me why do i have to always be the one getting hurt.
Tell me why do i always have to be the one being stuck in a situation of being hurt so much yet i can do nothing but to forgive and pretend that nothing has happened?
Tell me what wrong have i done to you for the past one year three months.
Do you know how much my heart is crying out to you.
Do you know how long it takes to fix a broken heart.
If you've loved me from the start, why do you even bear to do this to me.
Why must it be you to break the trust i have in you again and again.
Tell me how many more chances you need?
I've tried, but i'm tired.

Is this what's supposed to happen if you commit too much to a relationship?
How ironic.

2009-08-20T06:40:00.000+08:00

YAY MY PICTURES ARE UP :)

First

2009-08-19T13:21:00.002+08:00

Blogger doesn't allow me to upload my pictures ): I have no idea what's the problem with it.

This is so gonna shock some of you.

I actually scored my first A1 for my O's! One down! I do not have to sit for chinese paper anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAHA. It's such a good start for the upcoming O's in two months time. Today also marks the end of prelims and i'm already in the mood of celebration. This is not gonna work.

I thought i was able to share my joy with fifi but so sad he has to work today. I'm so damn depressed okay! Gave akl a call to see where she is but oh man even she has kaven's company ): Joel asked me out for movie with them but it seriously had been a year plus since i last watched a movie without fifi. I'm not exaggerating but it's this bad. I'll feel weird. Gave it a miss. Now i'm the only lonely person on earth, waiting for the arrival of my little darling girl. She never fails to accompany me whenever fifi has to work. How sweet right :)

With that little money he earns, fifi is willing to get me my puzzle frame this week! Finally after so long, our missing piece flew from (dont know which country) back to singapore and into our hands! I'm so happy and he owes me a big blue rose! I'm gonna go shopping with fifi alone next week! You don't know how excited i am. I know you would think i'm crazy, speaking like i'm having a boyfriend for the first time but its so damn rare okay throughout the 14months we have been together -.- ONLY I KNOW WHATS GOING ON and i'm not gonna tell you :p

Brilliant Mr Coconut Man has come up with a new saturday plan. We're gonna have picnic by the east coast. Yeah, i pray for the weather to be good. I dont wanna melt under the hot sun!

I've watched " where got ghost?! ". I have no balls to watch this kind of show lah, i was holding on to fifi covering part of my eyes. Like my hero right he. But actually, he's more afraid of horror shows than me! Normally those people who keep saying " eh you tak ada bola ar don't dare watch " are the ones who hates revealing their own weakness. Midnight will be the start of the seventh month ghost festival. Congrats to those who do not believe in the supernatural, you can continue your night life parties. However for those who has a third eye or some sixth sense, may god bless you man!