god should seriously stop taking people who matters away
let all the heavy storms be over
return us peace
we promise to do good


we should all stop fighting at the end of the day we will never win
those who do good will proceed to heaven
and those who do bad, it's time to burn in hell


i miss us,
do you, ohana?

we quarrel we fight but you never left

me and you know how much we want each other in our life

as and when i see people finding new love and falling out of love

the more i would like to hold on to you

and promise you that we're perfect for each other

all the good times i spent with you is enough to get me through all the bad moments we had

You underestimated me so screw you :)

I'm so pissed now i feel that im able to take ten strong shots at a go and if it still doesn't knock me out, you're in deep shit.

what hurts the most was being so close

perharps one day we should swap roles
then you would probably understand how it feels like to be me
and vice-versa


i'm really. really. really upset
because i know if i were you
i'll definitely do it better

):

true blood season 1.

.

somewhere inside, . know it will never be the same anymore
because . wasn't significant enough to hold you back
because . chose to go one step further and fucked all up
because . became someone else


and you stopped giving in to . nonsense

Keison

♥

This is little keison.
He is a chinchilla.
He is not a hamster.
He is way bigger than a hamster.
He is very active.
He jumps really high.
He bites.
He love raisins.

His cage cost $800 but he loves getting out of the cage.

drained.

i'm totally exhausted!
thanks to the amount of school work i have to complete.
9-6 everyday.

managed to scrape through the week.
awesome schoolmates.

next week won't be any better
but will still survive i guess

nevertheless, life's been good with hao.
happy pill after school and before bed.

i'm contented.
weekends! here i come!

ohana's chalet.

Amanda Lily Ohana i'm back from chalet. love sleeping on my own bed, love walking on clean floors, love drinking boiled water, love sitting on clean toilet bowls, love love love being home!

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Jonathan Ohana Auditore and Joel Ohana Whatchasay like this.

Jonathan Ohana Auditore

but miss sleeping with 5 person on 2 beds,5 person on the floor all in 1 small rm,miss walking on dusty and ash covered floor,miss drinking alchohol and soft drinks and tap water,miss sitting toilet bowl that has been vomitted and peed on but cleaned,miss miss miss being in chalet,right?

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Joel Ohana Whatchasay

Super like ur comment jon (:

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Amanda Lily Ohana

all the cannot be blacker feet, the smoky living room, the freezing air con, the ferraris and lambos in the room. Can never be any better!

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Jonathan Ohana Auditore

the boring sit down and spam tibits,the concentration and 007,the quite pathetic bbq,the chalet without speaker.this is what i would call a chalet of the ohanas.

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Amanda Lily Ohana

last minute bbq food, last minute charcoal/fire starters from other chalet, last minute tibits as our lunch also from other chalet and last minute chivas, so many people but only four chairs. what a memorable 4 days 3 nights.

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what else could i say?
even the most pathetic chalet turns out amazingly well because of the most awesome people in the chalet.

Toy story 3 today.

Two loners Two hours of karoke

Its almost the end of my two weeks holiday.
School's starting and im not looking forward to it at all.
Just the thought of all the projects and the long hours in school freaks me out.
Who says life in poly is way slacker in secondary school!?
Who says life in poly is way better than secondary school!?
Ha, yeah i fell for that.
But if you give me a choice to go back to secondary school, i'll still say no.
So maybe
the bottomline is
i just dont like school
I STRONGLY BELIEVE NO ONE DOES ANYWAY.
My best days in school were my kindergarden days i suppose


by the way, this two weeks had been tedious...
Karma
is
something
no
one
wants
to
believe
in


During this two weeks i've decided
I WANT to work in marina bay sands hotel..............

It's so pretty!
Oh my god especially the sky park!!!!! I'm totally in love with the entire building that everytime i see it i'll tell hao that its gonna be my future work place. Hahahaha
even on the sg flyer i pointed to hao and cheeboon telling them i'll be working there in the near future

i really really love it


I guess my life is rather planned, feels like it's fully planned
hmmmm just whether it's gonna go accordingly or not lol


i want to be married to hao with 2 happy kids(im rather ok with girls but hao want them to be boys?)
i want to work in marina bay sands hotel with 3k per month or MORE
i want to relax in a big house with a room with big tv screen and loud stereo set with carpets and huge cushions on the floor so that my fellow (ohana) can come lepak at my house anytime!!
best is to also have a bar at home also
a water bed at home with pink curtains surrounding the bed
i want a car with sky roof (me not being the driver) probably some audi cars out there!? (oh so pretty)
a cute little jap spitz?!
OH YES! THAT IS IT FOR NOW!
hmm is this gonna be possible if i dont attend school now??
yes definitely unless hao is a very rich guy to start with
or sudden fortune maybe?!
woohoo


Dont wake me up with reality now.

♥

♥ happy second anniversary to me and fi ♥

it's been all tears and joy, ups and downs, just me and you.

so cheers to what we've been through and smile because we're still doing awesome.

let's get it started

TO PARTY NEED MONEY
tonight's gonna be a great night, must be mentally ready to screw up all the mid sems next week.

haha great

i'm gonna live life like how it is suppose to be.


have you been across some people trying too hard for something
but end up with nothing?
how about those winning a battle without having to do anything?
you put a big (L) on your head
boohoo

I need to sit for a test later at 4pm but it's so difficult to study infront of the computer. It's also difficult to get off the computer now.

ok i'm currently linked to a website from facebook and this website is a replica of the book Man are from mars, Women are from venus.


& i chanced upon this!
Women hate lying, they do it only out of necessity. Men love it; it gives them validation to their illusions of grandeur. Women do it like professionals; men do it with amateurish results.


it's true because what are the chances of a guy getting caught with his flings and a girl getting caught with her flings?


ok sidetracked a little

i'm here to update about MY life.
life's been good.


however i am beginning to dread school everyday not because i don't have friends but because of the amount of work i have to do. i can see my projects and assignments piling up like a mountain but motivation level still 0.


It will still take me sometime before i finally press the reset button in my life.


I think i have awesome classmates who understands that i actually have a life outside school. I can't stay in school with them for the entire day. my whole time before school and after school is dedicated to my boyfriend.


Time really tells everything.
It tells me that there's always a chance for your trusted friend to turn their back against you without a word.


It also tells me that i've found myself a great boyfriend.
I don't see what's so bad about sticking with somebody who will face all kinds of shit in life with me. i don't see the reason for me to give up somebody this important for people who enter and exit my life as and when they like, for people who thinks backstabbing isn't a big deal and for people who only live for their own benefits.


Why should i try so hard to fit into your circle? I have my own ohana.
This family of mine is way more dependable.

life is good

ok seriously i really do not know if anyone is reading my blog.
but if you are,
i wanna tell you that im actually feeling good for this first week of school because i only have to turn up for lectures


actually i kind of like my classmates alot and im friends with almost the entire class ok!
my classmates are actually way way different from my ohana(family)
so therefore i gotta hold back a little when im in school hahaha
so overall, its a good start i guess


the first thing i picked up this week in school is that
timetable is rubbish
lectures always end an hour or 45 minutes earlier than what's stated.
unlike secondary, if the bell doesn't ring you can forget about leaving earlier.


the second thing is the number and duration of BREAKS.


so meanwhile i have five hour breaks before my next lesson starts and camp tonight and i am at my own house now! Just a 15 minute walk from school


fi is working till 8pm today and he asks me to turn up for camp and stay at home today. So today im all alone and i wont be seeing him till tomorrow 8pm when he ends work. this is so depressing. im becoming more and more dependent on fi because he has his bike now and amanda is a lucky girl because at certain times she do not have to squeeze with people at the bus stop trying so hard to get up a bus.


alvin will be serving the nation in a few days time
we will be holding a farewell party for him this saturday.
muahahahahahahaha
its going to be fun he's going to be drunk

can you believe it my school ends at 6pm on tues and thurs.
this is so scary!
but in between there's like 3-4 hours break.
die.
im need to move out of my own comfort zone and start making new friends already.

all over again

hello?!
i thought im supposed to be your pirority?!
lol
k fine no big deal


cheers honey
orientation is tomorrow
im so fucking scared i swear! i dont know why im feeling so out of place
i cant sleep now!!


i dread orientation
i dread school


amanda you gotta grow up
you cant expect your boyfriend to go to school with you?


oh my
gotta face this new level of education myself
this sucks


and you know what
i need to get out of singapore, its getting way too boring

too much alcohol

The birthday boy got kisses from everyone. Too many to upload! Lucky him!

Ohana

Best i ever had

Good morning.

Hi early birds!
It's a little too early to wake up at 10am on a saturday.
But who doesn't love waking up knowing that there's plans for today?


Fi is fetching his baby back now before we head to town for good food and movie!
I'm so happy while waiting


If you minus all the conflicts that will happen in a rl
who won't want to be in love?!
Even waiting seems so meaningful you know?! Hahaha


no wonder people say women in love are the prettiest because they are the happiest!


ok enough of my shit.
I just woke up feeling lucky for myself that's all.
I'm easily contented because fi gave me a morning hug and a morning kiss
but it isn't a bad thing because i appreciate small little things that somebody like fi will do for me :)


i guess you've heard many negative comments about long mundane rl, nothing new nothing interesting
but in actual fact everyday is something new
everyday you have something new to laugh about
everyday you have something new to remember
everyday you have something new to learn


You know what's the best part
Everything that has happened 2 years back feels like yesterday.



My back is itching badly now.
I went for my first tattoo session already at gimmelove by baldwin and there will be many more to go because i'm doing a full back.

I don't really bother what kind of impression i'm giving you guys when i say this.
But i can't wait to finish the whole piece because i swear it's so gonna kick your ass.
Don't talk about regrets with me.
This is definitely not something i did on impulse.
I'm confident that in the future i will not go out in shame but in awe



You know sometimes when you just turn your back away for a second, your closest friends could turn out to be your enemies?

Life is full of unexpected events
I just don't understand why some people can stand putting on a mask for so long
Isn't it easier to treat somebody truthfully/sincerely?
It's pointless to be angry.
I trust that you just have to experience it yourself then you'll understand.


That's why i always love my group of friends. Don't you agree that sometimes girls are way more bitchy than guys? Or is it because guys are simple minded creatures?

Whatever it is.


I only know humans are all the same.
Whatever you do to your own kind, you'll get the same treatment.

Fan's 18 already ):

Hi.
It feels like everyone's 18 except for me.
We just celebrated Fan's 18th birthday last saturday.


Clash of the titans was really really good just like percy's.


You know what.
I just got my pay but i bet it can barely last me for a week ):
I'm going on a date with fi this saturday so prolly my pay will be gone on that day because of shopping.


and my little boy would like to TRY RIBEYE!! Hahahahaha.
Omg, i'll never forget the first time i tried ribeye.
I cannot stand anything with blood. (Even bbq chicken)
That steak i tried the last time was kinda bloody, gross
That was a bad start.



What seriously bothers me is that, school's starting... It's really starting...
Like in less than two weeks time?
I love my life now
I have all the time in the world to myself.
Don't have to dedicate it to studies at all.
Just have to work four hours a day.
Other than that, i've so much time.


I'll try to upload the photos soon 'cos currently there is some problem with blogger now.
But there's still facebook!
K, That's it.


p.s I'm so excited/nervous/scared for tomorrow's ......

Annoying post.

ME wants to blog.
ME ended work at 3pm.
Reached home at 4pm.
Waiting for fi to end work at 8pm.
Waiting for fi to have prata together.


Which means, ME haven't had dinner yet.
ME stomach is very hungry.
ME feeling grumpy already.


Anyway, junhong called me with great news today.
ME found an artist already.
Swee.


To update you guys.
ME starting school already in like two weeks time.
ME is very depressed although ME should feel excited because this is the moment that ME has been waiting for. THE LIFE OF A YOUNG ADULT. To me, it's like a total change. From secondary to poly. In other words, i'll meet new people again. I'll need to make new friends again.

Another phase of life.
Oh wells


But ME'll have to juggle my time well so as not to drop out from poly! WAHAHAHA.
baby's tp is on the 8th april and once he passes his tp,
omg i'm so excited because ME'll be the first girl on his bike. AND THE ONLY GIRL OF COURSE. Exceptions? Me'll have to consider.


Yes readers, ME is so selfish.
I don't like their boobs leaning on my bf's back.
I don't like their legs to touch baby's buttocks!
So yep


To be continued.
I need to have my dinner now. Bye!

slow and steady wins the race

hello
busy with work lately
end of the month = pay cut = must chiong
5th april, pay day!

i can't wait.


if there's anything interesting in my life then i'll update.
bye love.

gloomy.

when you're down with flu cough and fever, you wish someone was here to take care of you so when you close your eyes and listen to the heavy rain outside, you know that you'll be safe and in good hands.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Still alive and kicking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Ok i tell you what, i want to give up so badly.
Just give up.



Give what up!!??!
Don't probe.
You'll never want to know





Guess what dudes.
i went for romp v last monday and i tell you what it's definitely of no match to last year's. Such a waste of time and money ):


Gotta turn in now, work tomorrow.
I really miss my old fi, do you? if you ever see him, ask him to come back soon.

insert hearts here.

Process of making baby fifi..........

Taaadaaaaaaa!~!





Happy birthday honey and happy birthday to me.

All photos are up on fb already!

17th

Happy birthday to me, chinyi and sherri!
I'm so glad that we get to celebrate with each other this year again! Last year was a blast, this year too! Sad to say, i became the joke of the day. Two years back on fi's birthday i was dead drunk and i swore to myself that i'll never be drunk again! But last night, my god............


I was effing DRUNK again. Hahahaahahaha i swear i was laughing at myself when they told me what ive done!! I've no idea how crazy i went.


I was scolding everyone around me and laughing and crying like retard.
How embarrassing!


Obviously under these circumstances, you will expect people to take videos of you and sabo you on fb. Ok, i guess ill just have to be prepared for the worst because i have no idea what kind of stuns they came up with.


Today, fi will be bringing me out to celebrate my birthday! I cant waitttttttttttttttttttt.

keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love

i gave work a miss today.


my birthday celebration is tomorrow.
i am feeling so sick now
to make it worst, my troublesome part of the month is here!! hate being a girl.


): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Valentines day celebration.

I swear i was smiling to myself while preparing fi's gift
Couldn't wait to see his expression!

I even wrote short messages at the back of every photo! Hahahahaha.
Oh man, it must have melted his heart ♥

baby i hope god would love to see us together till the end of world :>

♥

You know what.


i think i've vent enough anger on twitter and fb discriminating all the guys in the world. Rather offensive but who really bothers about their image if they are really boiling inside.


Today i took a bus home.
Because anonymous has someone to ride anonymous home on a bike.


By the way, these are photos taken by sherri on valentines day :>
Pictures in my camera will be uploaded a lil' later.

Ok. I need to do some typing or i'll really be brooding over that previous matter and piss myself off.

First.
It's essential for a guy to know that all girls love surprises be it big or small surprise.

So if you're a guy who didn't even prepare anything for your girlfriend on a day like VALENTINES DAY then you should know how much you've failed being a boyfriend :>


Yes, some of you may argue that " vday is just a normal day what so long as i dote on my girlfriend everyday, she knows i love her alot bla bla bla "
Excuses 101.


So back to you.
If you really love her that much,
Whats making you hesitate to surprise her! What's stopping you?! By putting in a little effort to see the genuine smile on your girlfriend's face, why not man?


Instead of the fake smile your girlfriend gives telling you " it's ok dear/honey/baby "


Plus, girls are jealous creatures.
Don't tell me you have the cheek to take them out on streets and let them see the whole world holding flowers and gifts?! I don't think so.


Maybe you say.
"It's a waste of money getting gifts, you may be sincere on the outside but an asshole inside"
But the thing is.
You can make your own gift.
You don't have to spend hundreds.


I've always believe in making your own gift because it shows your girl that you made an effort :>
Who's with me?

♥

Last week's.

Happy 20th monthsary, i ♥ you.

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Today.

Happy valentines day i ♥ you.