Annoying post.

ME wants to blog.
ME ended work at 3pm.
Reached home at 4pm.
Waiting for fi to end work at 8pm.
Waiting for fi to have prata together.


Which means, ME haven't had dinner yet.
ME stomach is very hungry.
ME feeling grumpy already.


Anyway, junhong called me with great news today.
ME found an artist already.
Swee.


To update you guys.
ME starting school already in like two weeks time.
ME is very depressed although ME should feel excited because this is the moment that ME has been waiting for. THE LIFE OF A YOUNG ADULT. To me, it's like a total change. From secondary to poly. In other words, i'll meet new people again. I'll need to make new friends again.

Another phase of life.
Oh wells


But ME'll have to juggle my time well so as not to drop out from poly! WAHAHAHA.
baby's tp is on the 8th april and once he passes his tp,
omg i'm so excited because ME'll be the first girl on his bike. AND THE ONLY GIRL OF COURSE. Exceptions? Me'll have to consider.


Yes readers, ME is so selfish.
I don't like their boobs leaning on my bf's back.
I don't like their legs to touch baby's buttocks!
So yep


To be continued.
I need to have my dinner now. Bye!

slow and steady wins the race

hello
busy with work lately
end of the month = pay cut = must chiong
5th april, pay day!

i can't wait.


if there's anything interesting in my life then i'll update.
bye love.

gloomy.

when you're down with flu cough and fever, you wish someone was here to take care of you so when you close your eyes and listen to the heavy rain outside, you know that you'll be safe and in good hands.

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

Still alive and kicking!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





Ok i tell you what, i want to give up so badly.
Just give up.



Give what up!!??!
Don't probe.
You'll never want to know





Guess what dudes.
i went for romp v last monday and i tell you what it's definitely of no match to last year's. Such a waste of time and money ):


Gotta turn in now, work tomorrow.
I really miss my old fi, do you? if you ever see him, ask him to come back soon.

insert hearts here.

Process of making baby fifi..........

Taaadaaaaaaa!~!





Happy birthday honey and happy birthday to me.

All photos are up on fb already!

17th

Happy birthday to me, chinyi and sherri!
I'm so glad that we get to celebrate with each other this year again! Last year was a blast, this year too! Sad to say, i became the joke of the day. Two years back on fi's birthday i was dead drunk and i swore to myself that i'll never be drunk again! But last night, my god............


I was effing DRUNK again. Hahahaahahaha i swear i was laughing at myself when they told me what ive done!! I've no idea how crazy i went.


I was scolding everyone around me and laughing and crying like retard.
How embarrassing!


Obviously under these circumstances, you will expect people to take videos of you and sabo you on fb. Ok, i guess ill just have to be prepared for the worst because i have no idea what kind of stuns they came up with.


Today, fi will be bringing me out to celebrate my birthday! I cant waitttttttttttttttttttt.

keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love

i gave work a miss today.


my birthday celebration is tomorrow.
i am feeling so sick now
to make it worst, my troublesome part of the month is here!! hate being a girl.


): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

Valentines day celebration.

I swear i was smiling to myself while preparing fi's gift
Couldn't wait to see his expression!

I even wrote short messages at the back of every photo! Hahahahaha.
Oh man, it must have melted his heart ♥

baby i hope god would love to see us together till the end of world :>

♥

You know what.


i think i've vent enough anger on twitter and fb discriminating all the guys in the world. Rather offensive but who really bothers about their image if they are really boiling inside.


Today i took a bus home.
Because anonymous has someone to ride anonymous home on a bike.


By the way, these are photos taken by sherri on valentines day :>
Pictures in my camera will be uploaded a lil' later.

Ok. I need to do some typing or i'll really be brooding over that previous matter and piss myself off.

First.
It's essential for a guy to know that all girls love surprises be it big or small surprise.

So if you're a guy who didn't even prepare anything for your girlfriend on a day like VALENTINES DAY then you should know how much you've failed being a boyfriend :>


Yes, some of you may argue that " vday is just a normal day what so long as i dote on my girlfriend everyday, she knows i love her alot bla bla bla "
Excuses 101.


So back to you.
If you really love her that much,
Whats making you hesitate to surprise her! What's stopping you?! By putting in a little effort to see the genuine smile on your girlfriend's face, why not man?


Instead of the fake smile your girlfriend gives telling you " it's ok dear/honey/baby "


Plus, girls are jealous creatures.
Don't tell me you have the cheek to take them out on streets and let them see the whole world holding flowers and gifts?! I don't think so.


Maybe you say.
"It's a waste of money getting gifts, you may be sincere on the outside but an asshole inside"
But the thing is.
You can make your own gift.
You don't have to spend hundreds.


I've always believe in making your own gift because it shows your girl that you made an effort :>
Who's with me?

♥

Last week's.

Happy 20th monthsary, i ♥ you.

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Today.

Happy valentines day i ♥ you.

cny eve.

Hi
I havent switch to cny mood yet


As for vday........ ):
I don't dare to have high hopes about anything like surprises or whatsoever but even if it really turns out bad i just have to console myself that atleast i'm celebrating it with fi and friends.


Another thing, I should stop buying the same kind of dress but different design.


I've never really tried shopping alone until yesterday. Surprisingly time passes so quickly that it's time to meet hao after his work. Trust me, it's way more productive if you shop alone. I've got myself 6 items and...


My 400 dollars pay is gone in less than a week :'<


To look on the bright side of life. The money from angbaos is coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This weather makes me feel like staying at home with the air-con on and a tub of b&j ice-cream infront of me and many many cups of ice water

hello
you know what makes the best breakfast
1) A cup of ice milo
2) A slice of bread spread with warm nutella and another slice with melted cheese


shopping later
best



halfway through momo love...........................

good old times

it's time to bathe and meet sherri to get my pay later and wenfen for dinner later
spent some quality time with sherri last night over at macdonals
we talked about our good old times


i really miss alot of people
i saw how people changed be it for the better or for the worse
i saw how people left and came back
i saw how people left and never came back


i don't ask for the time to reverse
i only ask for one day maybe on my birthday we can all hang out together putting work aside putting everything aside just that very day before johnny and alvin enter ns, we can have fun together the whole big wonderful bunch


i love you all

Hehe, no work :)

I want to catch hachiko, anyone? fi doesn't want to watch it with me. he slept throughout (marley and me) the other time. fi has always love dogs like me but oh man, it's just a pity that we both don't have the means to feed it. But he promise that we'll get it when we're married with 2 happy kids!


So after one whole week of work, i'm finally off on sunday. I'm already starting to love my work and all the people there already but this job makes fi jealous because the timing sucks plus i can't accompany fi like how i do every single day already so he asked me to quit. Oh well...


So on my off day i went on a sweet loving date with fi, hahahaha i used to complain that we always go out in a group no chance for romantic dates but now i wished everyone was free ): i miss our good old times.


Yes, vday's coming!
Can't wait! Hopefully it'll turn out so much better than i expected! Chinese new year too.......steamboat and angbaos excitedddddddddddddddddddddddd. After cny will be my birthday! How happening! Can't wait!

hello
i'm glad i'm still alive. my goodness, i've never expected summerbreeze to be so packed during weekends especially saturday. the crowd just kept coming and coming but i've made wonderful friends there. hahahaaah. well, i'm likeable i suppose.


It's almost a week without fi ):
i can lie to the world that i dont need him anymore but deep down inside i know how much i miss his presence. haha i wished i knew what to do.

Moving on.

I'm starting work on friday at summerbreeze. Less time to think of fi now because i'll be working from 6pm - 3am. By the time i reach home, i'll be flat dead on bed. Dining by the sea. An ideal place for a date. Luckily i haven't been there with fi. If not i'm going to start working and start thinking of him again. Very bad.


Fi is someone i'll do everything with in my everyday life. Everytime he goes to school in the morning, i'll sleep till he gets back and lie on top of me thinking that he's very light. I'll watch dramas at his house waiting for him to come back from his cdc either with good news or bad news. If he fails his practical, atleast he has me by his side. Fi loves hugging me alot because he says that i'm his teddy bear (refering that i'm fat!) Then we'll make our brunch together at home and we'll have dinner outside together. At night when i'm doing my facial, he'll sit beside me reading his newspaper or the secret book by adam khoo, he'll hug me when we sleep and i can always hear him talking in his dreams. Whenever we had no plans for the day it wasn't that bad because we had the company of each other. But now, i'm alone at my house and he's alone at his house. We are living under the same sky but no longer the same roof anymore.



I went to drink by the sea with andrew yesterday at pondstar (pasir ris townpark) They sell shots/food/beer/cocktails/mocktails. It's a very good place to chill. I sat there for 4 hours without realising until when my kick sets in. Last night was an ASAHI night! It's our first time trying it and we had cans and cans of it. I drink not because i want to get myself drunk over fi. That would be the silliest thing to do because making yourself drunk and puke all over doesn't mean that your guy/girl will come back to you, your problem is still left unsolved the next day when you're sober. I drink for the kick. There's a fine line between kick and getting drunk.


I'm so glad that i'll be seeing eefan later on! 19 months isn't very long. But for the past 19 months, more than half of my friends are fi's friends and i love them alot too. I hope the steamboat plan tonight won't be cancelled. Recently my aklly has been stressing over some stuffs. Idk what happened to her friend or her workplace but i wish that everything will be alright soon so that she can go to work happily everyday. Though she has less time for me now. But it's ok! I have a very good listening ear like andrew now :)

My eyes are swollen and my heart is empty. But i'm conscious, so much conscious than before. And now without love, my vision became clearer than ever. I've never seen things so clearly before for the past a year and seven months. I was too deep into love that i thought i could leave everything behind just for you, forgive everything you've done to me in the name of love. But I was wrong.




I'm no longer with fi because we have chosen something that's best for the both of us. None of us wanted this breakup, none of us expected this to happen, none of us was at fault. Before this, i thought love was powerful, i thought love could conquer everything but i was so wrong. I thought i've put everything behind me and moved on spending every single day happily because i couldn't help being with you but sadly after so long, so hard that i tried, we're back to square one. It feels as if falling when you try to fly, i've never thought falling would hurt so much.



Your past was a disaster. It's something that haunts me time and time i'm with you. What i could see now wasn't our future but all your past, no longer me and you. It's so difficult to see myself without you. But this is a choice that we both got to make eventually.




Yes, it's going to hurt. Experiencing this myself was way worse off. It's so difficult to cope with my own feelings. The world seems crashing down on me at this moment when i reminisce about the memories you and me created.




I'm sorry that i chose to walk away. I've not only lost a boyfriend but also my pillar of support all these while. Now that you're gone, i have to learn how to be independent. I no longer have someone by my side all the time to shower me with love, to hold me and kiss me, to lie beside me every night.




That familiar shoulders that i always rested on. The familiar hand that holds me everywhere. The familiar voice that whispers " i love you dear " The familiar face. So last night in your arms, i finally tried to fight back all my tears and do this. I said the magic word that shouldn't be said in a relationship like ours. I cried so badly last night because you meant the world to me. You've always been the stronger party, you hugged me tightly telling me that i'll find someone so much better that deserves my love. You told me strongly that you'll try to avoid me and drift away slowly from me so that i don't miss you so much. For my benefit, you encouraged me to go out often and get used to the loneliness without you. You said confidently that you'll wait for me so that if one day i can forgive your past, i can always come back to you and that will be a new beginning for us. Last night was so painful that every time you kissed my tears away from my face, my heart was screaming for you.




So today i hardened my heart, packed my stuffs and left. I believe that i'll always love you. I just need time to overcome the one inside me and i hope it isn't too late.

Life's a bitch.

The person who loves you the most, hurts you the most.

Mom's considering to get me a pomeranian now now now and i'm so excited! I've always wanted a dog but i'm afraid that i don't have the means to give it a good life. But now that my mum can financially support me to get a dog, i'll have no problem! Hahahahaha.



Life's a bitch.

Because when i don't wanna work, so many job lobangs.

When i wanna work, nobody wants to hire me.

And now that everyone's got a job except for me,

i'm going to be alone.

Oh man.

Life's a bitch.

Because for the past one year seven months, i've been together with a sucker.

Life's a bitch.

Because all good things have to come to an end eventually.

Life's a bitch.

Because you gave someone your everything that you end up with nothing now.